February 29, 2008

Do-Gooder of the dAY

It's not even 9am and I feel like I have done my good deed for the day (or week?). I left for work at the usual time and just as I was passing the intersecting street and going to turn right, I noticed something in my perepheral vision. At first thought it looekd like alemur climbing up a phone pole. But on closer inspection (I had to walk about a half a block out of my way). I found out it was a black cat entangled in a plastic grocery bag (thats right those evil things dont just effect ocean animals). I emmediate felt the need to help the poor thing. I thought about old ladies calling the firemen to rescue cats in trees on TV, and those animal rescue shows. I decided to risk the potential fee and call information for animal control. The cat was pretty far up the pole and obviously scared. I think it ran up there to escape the bag which it couldnt possibly. Stupid Cat. Anyway, so while going through the process of geting a number, calling, dials one for english, two for animal control, then getting connected to a different dept, etc. I saw somethign miraculous. THe cat actually figured out that by releasing it's grip ever so much, then gripping again quickly, it would be lowered. I was still trying to reach someone when the cat made it far enough for me to reach it. SO I hung up and grabbed the cat, who surprisingly didnt fight me. If it were my roommate's cat, she would have clawed my eyes out. This is a feril, wild cat who has probably enver been touched by human hands and it let me grab it, he even let go of the pole, and I untangled it from the bag and set it down when it scurried away, but I swear, not before it looked back with a look of gratitude. At on point when I was on the phone and he was far up the pole a woman walked by and I pointed to the cat and she looked a me like "crazy white lady trying to help a stupid alley cat" and walked on. Very un-neighborly. But when I let that cat go, I realized I felt a little nervous or shaken. Don't know why.

Anyway, thats my adventure for this morning.

I was doing so good for almost two whole days on my diet. I even saved points for a pasta dinner last night, but I was craving dessert and we had nothing, so I asked Wes to bring something home. He brought all the yummy sundae fixins! Oh no! I majorly pigged out on ice cream and went 10 points into my weekly allotment, and it's not even the weekend! Then feeling shameful this morning, I skipped breakfast. Had a half a banana at work and I'm starting over .. .again.

I did enter all my food on the tracker though. I am sure I can make up for it with the snowboarding and what-not. BUt what on earth should Ihave for lunch today?

February 28, 2008

Not just back on the wagon

I'm not just back on the wagon- I am driving it!

I weighed in yesterday to a 1.2lb gain adn I am sick of not losing consistantly anymore. I talked to my therapist and she thinks I have too many goals and I am feelign overwhelmed. So this week I am not drinking soda at home, I am going to try to move more and I will try to drink more water. But I did more. For at least 5 meals now (a day and a half) I have tracked everything Iate and stayed within my limit of alloted points. If I can keep this up this week, I am sure to see a loss on the scale next week. I am sure going snowboarding this weekend won't hurt either. So I guess I am newly motivated.

Temptations loom everywhere, but I already ignored the cupcake party at work yesterday and took an alternative entrance to the meeting this morning, where cinomin buns and other pastries were displayed.

I also picked up snacks for the meeting that I don't like and I have a pretty good idea for dinner. I feel real good and positive and happy to report it.

February 27, 2008

Friendship SUrvey?

A friend emailed this to me, so I think I wil fill it out in place fo a regular blog:

1. What time did you get up this morning? whatever time Wes' alarm went off, then again at 6:30ish
2. Diamonds or pearls? Diamonds fo sho
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? 27 dresses
4. What is your Favourite TV show? Grey's Anatomy
5. What do you usually have for breakfast? cereal on weekdays
6. Favourite cuisine? Italian
7. What is your middle name? Monkey
8. What food do you dislike? Carrots
9. What is your Favourite CD? right now im into soundtracks- juno, into the wild, that oscar song
10. What do you drive? 2006 Chevy Malibu Maxx
11. Favourite sandwich? i like tuna lately
12. What characteristic/s do you despise? flakiness, liars, ungenuiness
13. Favourite item of clothing? my paris blue jeans, maybe my cowgirl underwear
14. Favourite sport to watch? figure skating maybe. . .
15 Furthest places you are sending this? who's reading?
16. Who do you least expect to send this back to you? Bah
17. Person you expect to send it back first? dont do it
18. Favourite saying? "seriously" and "i know, right?"
19. When is your birthday? 06/25
20. Are you a morning person or a night person? i tend to exsist during both times
21. What is your shoe size? 9
22. Pets? 2 kitties
23. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share with us? im having a bad hair day 24. What did you want to be when you were little? i dont remember, i think i just wanted to be a kid
25. What is your Favourite chocolate bar? reeses
27. What is your Favourite flower? thats tough, i love em all really- maybe lillies and roses
28. What is your full name? Jessica Monkey Nelson
29. What are you listening to right now? air conditioning, typing, office chatter
30. What was the last thing you ate? cheerios
31. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be? orange
32. How is the weather right now? clear, cool
33. Last person you spoke to on the phone? Mom
34 Do you like the person who sent this to you? Yes
35. Favourite soft drink? coke zero
36. Favourite restaurant? HOPR maybe
37. Hair colour? brown with blonde highlights
38. Siblings? 1bro, 2 half-sis, 1 half-bro, 2 step-bro, 2 step-sis
39. Favourite day of the year? its different every year
41. Summer or winter? summer for camping, winter for xmas and snow
42. Hugs or kisses? cant i have both?
43. Chocolate or Vanilla? Chocolate
44. Do you want your friends to email you back? never, i hate getting responses (jk)
8. What did you do last night? watched american idol and had dinner with my babe
49. Favourite smell? i like white musk or cookies or xmas trees
50. What are you afraid of? nothing! hahahahaha!
51. How many keys on your key ring? 3 i think
52. How many years at your current job? less than one
53. Favourite day of the week? Saturday
54. How many towns have you lived in? 4
55. Do you make friends easily? not as easily as i used to, but not bad
56. How many people will you be sending this to? dont know who reads my blog

February 25, 2008

Monday

So the oscar party at work was fun, i went shopping with sue on Saturday and watched the oscars on sunday.

i have been eating very badly and i need to stop, i dont know why ihave let it all go lately. time to get serious again ... and not feel bad about it.

cause i DID excersize.

thats all for now.

February 22, 2008

Busy busy busy

not lookign forward to storm

busy busy

visiting kerry tonight hopefully

more later, maybe

February 21, 2008

Today is today

So I got a response from my "friend" and as I sispected he can not be happy for me and my new life and my successes and hapiness because he himself doesnt have those things. it makes me very sad for him and I dont ever see his life improving if he can not stand to be around people who have their shit together. Not that I am perfect by any means, but I do make efforts to have the life I want and I work hard at it.

anyway, in other news I am down a half a pound and trying to drink more water today.

nothing else really to report, work is busy, its raining and i am glad its almost the weekend again!

February 20, 2008

New Session

So a new Session of Weight Watchers starts today and I feel ready to make a bigger effort. I think thats whats great about the continuous reinforcement, I get off the horse, but keep getting reminders to try and try again.

This morning I had cheerios and skim milk (no sugar added) and lunch I had tuna on wheat with light mayo and instead of baked chips i chose the apple wedges.

Akemi gave me two small one-bite chewy fruit candies from the UK, so I skipped the froyo.

I am proud of all these choices today, but being back at work after a four day weekend is tiring!

so nothing else too new ....well thats a lie.

okay, so an old friend visited me this weekend. he and i met not long after i moved to SF when I was 18 or 19 and he is definitely a different kind of person. he doesnt seem to want to settle and make anything of himself and never has. he likes to jump around to different cities, in different relationships and def. loves to talk about himself and seems to embelish and make himself sound very smart and worldly. Like he knows something about everything. I always chalked this up to character and appreciated him when he was around for being a friend and being himself. We were briefly involved forever ago, but I think we both knew we were never a match.

Anyway, it had been five years since I had seen him adn in the past year or so I had had some conversations with him and some email exchanges that lead me to believe he had changed. Maybe he is more sincere and sensative, maybe this is someone worth remaining friends with. So before he goes into the military or mvoes to Hawaii, I told him to visit. Perfect timing too because I had a four-day weekend. Well I didnt see much of him at all since he came and he wasnt very communicative about his plans. He fell in and out of love, went on a drinking bindge and flirted in the castro. He left his bag at my house and blew off my neighbors BBQ. I left like a relative he was crashing with and it hurt. He was at least good about telling me where he was at until Monday, then he calls Tuesday night and picks up his bag. I shoved it through the door and let him go.

I am done with friends like these. I have grown up and I dont need the drama and I certainly dont need someone who doesnt have any interest in me or my life.

He did IM me briefly, in which I responded with an honest email. And thats it.

I have lost a few friends in my life, some by choice and some not. It never gets easier, but everyone has to make their own choices and live their life how they will.

I am thankful for the good friends I have, the love in my life and my family.

Okay, I am sure there are other subjects, but thats all for today.

February 13, 2008

Obnoxious Hold music

As I write this im on hold with spring because my new phone never came in the mail and when they put me on hold its very very loud, but when they come on the line I can barely hear them. Grrrrrr. Anyway. ...not too much new. last ngiht i did belly dancing video with haydee (funny isnt it that we call them videos, when they are dvds?- is that just me?) and we did some crunches, lunges and squats. I dont think I will see a loss today on the scale, but you enver know.

Okay I got nothin really today, maybe more later.
J

February 12, 2008

Oy Vey

So our landlord has proven to be quite the . . how should I say? Procrastinator?
Very odd things :
-His new "property manager" showed us the place and told us to only go to him for anything we need. Dan is a realtor and art glary owner. Generally nice guy
-House was unfinished and some details were left undone, water didnt work at first, gas wasnt being billed to us, MAJOR cable wiring problems, rugs left behind, empty hole where light fixture should be
-They never signed and returned the walk-through/move-in paperwork. I've asked for it at least a dozen times.
-They let weeks go by before addressing any sort of problem, then offer a quick half-assed reaction
-Somewhere along the line Dan stopped caring and now I go directly to the owner
-Dan was invited to our party, RSVP'ed yes and never showed, never called, not aword
-The address on his realtor website is wrong, our xmas card was returned
-Rent checks can only be mailed to a PO box, and he takes about a month to cash them
-General communication break down all over the place.
-Supposedly they were suppose to be responsible for the landscaping, but not one gardener or lawn mower has graced our property yet.

Do we have a case here, or do we just have a lazy landlord?

The worst part is they are nice people, you want to like them and not be a bitch.
Oh well.

In other news, today is a work holiday, but i traded for another day, and a lot of people did cause im not alone.

The diet hasnt been great, but i dont feel down about it at all.

I am super duper in love.

I talked ot my therapist a lot about wes last night, and how we differ and we decided I need to work on not pressuring him in any way.

Thats all for today.

February 11, 2008

Quick, Sunny Weekend

This weekend was pretty great, it started with meeting friends at a brewery ..now i thought it was going to be a restaurant or bar that brews its own beer, but it was literally this industrial live/work lift space where two guys make beer, have weekly BBQ's and run their little side business. I guess people can go every Friday for free beer, BBQ and just hang out and spread the word on some good homemade local brew. I was a little skeptical at first because the place was well hidden amung ports, rigs and factories, but it was really cool. A small gathering of friendly hipsters, bikers and beer lovers. Some girlfriends were there to partake and it was nice. Thanks Bev! Next I got to experience a little time-machine flashback as I witnessed Heather's play-date with Cassidy. They really reminded me of being 12. How you really wish you were a teenager and youre very curious about sex and boys and everything under the sun is a reason to shout and laugh. It was nice. So next I drove Cassidy home, then Heather and Wes and I went for dinner at damnit i forgot the name of the restaurant, but I got a half a rotisserie chicken for the price of a quarter chicken- not bad!
Saturday was a bit of a lazy day, with the exception of a trip to target, a car wash and game night with the neighbors. Fun!~
Sunday truley was the laziest day ive had in a long time, i did practically nothing except get a few groceries at Trader Joes.

February 8, 2008

TGIF

So far so good for this Foggy Friday Morn. Is it really annoying that I said morn and not morning?

anyway last night haydee and i did girls next door workouts and i heated up a trader joes meatloaf with potatoes, it was super yummy!

no idea what we will do tonight for dinner, but im looking forward to getting a drink with friends after work.

no news otherwise, sorry

February 7, 2008

Week Almost Over

I forgot to mention that three new assistants have started at work and they all got flowers, well to make the other assistants not feel left out, Lynne got us all flowers. I have enjoyed the lillies and tulips at my desk so much i decided to get all the assistants in on a bouquet for Lynne for Valentines day. Well thats all good and great, but I am not the only one who noticed Lynne's desk was the only one sans foilage. When Akemi forgot to give away a bouquet she got at the staff fun event, Don said "give them to Lynne", but then Lynne put them on Trush's desk, and today Meg put flowers on Lynne's desk for staying late. Oh well, Lynne deserves flowers everyday. Thats good Karma for ya.

In other news I have officially watched every friends episode and I lost one pound, bringing me back to my all-time low at WW, so any loss form here on out will be my lowest. Yay.

No other news. Valentines is coming up and i have a couple cute little things and cards for wes, we still have no plans and i sort of refuse to take the reins on this one. This should be the ONE time a year the guy goes out of his way to be romantic and plan ahead. Now i have had my fair share of crappy and dissapointing valentines, and in the end it is just a manufactured holiday and i am still with the love of my life. ...but yeah i do have fantasies of him putting on the sweater i got him and taking me to a fancy restaurant, or a romantic place, something he actually planned. He is good about getting me flowers on the necessary holidays, and a card, i know i can expect those thigns cause he is a super good guy ...but i know planning and romantic gestures are not his forte, so i will try to keep my expectations reaLISTIC AND not be a drag.

February 5, 2008

Where's my Babe?

So usually every morning Wes' alarm goes off before mine and i faintly hear it and wake up enough to raslize its not mine and i can go back to sleep. THen I might wake up again when he gives me a kiss goodbye and moments later usually my alarm goes off. Sometimes he's still there when I wake up but leaves soon after. Well this morning I woke up to my alarm and i figured he was in the kitchen but he was gone. i must have been in a super deep sleep. it was weird and i felt a void. as much as i hate being woken up, this was worse. I dont know if he had a bad night and couldnt sleep and thats why he got up and went to work early, or if he just had something improtantt o do at work, or if i just missed him and was just deep asleep when he kissed me goodbye. Weird.

all else is pretty good. i saw my therapist yeterday and had dinner with christina. nothing really to report.

February 4, 2008

Lick my screen

great way to clean the inside of your computer screen: http://www.linein.org/media/screenclean.swf

Voting, Short Weekend, Flowers

I really wish I knew what to tell my friends when they tell me they arent voting cause they dont think their vote matters. I knwo there have been some sketchy ballot counting ways in the past, and California's vote is generally decided for, but I do feel like it matters, and I feel strongly about this, although I am not sure why. I don't pay much attention to politics or world news in general, and a lot of the system really confuses me, but I do go to the voting booth and for whatever reason ichose whatever candiddate I chose, i own that decision and I played my part.

Anyway ...this weekend felt very short, but I did a lot. BBQ, hang with my babe, Football, theater with Jess. It was pretty good after I destressed from the crazy workweek.

I got to work today to find flowers in my otherwise always empty vase. How delightful! A note from the cheif EA accompanied it with a thanks for all yoru help. It was so nice and sweet and refreshing, really lifted my spirits! I love lillies and tulips- so pretty!

Diet is okay i think, i stopped trackign over the weekend and didnt do too well on the meal plans, but i dont think i did too too horrible. We;ll see come Wednesday!

February 1, 2008

Pretty NEat

A whole bunch of news crews were here yesterday cause i guess a guy at my work discovered a new species of mammal: http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/science/nature/7213571.stm

This si also pretty cool: http://www.calacademy.org/namethosechicks/

Big Sigh

So this week at work, well each day has been getting progressively more intense and stressful and while It's kind of fun and nice to be busy, the stress is taking amajor toll on my body and my attitude. I thinkt he bad weather is playing a huge part as well.

Yesterday it was raining, and I have to admit when it rains, it doesnt seem as bad to walk to bart in the rain cause i knwo my babe will pick me up on the other end, I even made an effort to not leave so late, even though I still had a ton to do. I felt seriously beat, physically and just tired all around. When I called Wes he was still at work too! Now I guess I tend to be a bit self-aware and wasn't as sensative to the fact that he didnt sleep well and was working late, cause all i could think about was poor me.

I knew we needed some key ingredients at home, so despite me being wet, my umbrella broken and my spirits down, I went to the store and got a few things. For some reason on the walk home from BART, in the rain, aching body, broken spirits, broken umbrella, in the rain I just wanted to cry. I wanted out fo the wet unconfortable work clothes, but not before I showered. So when I got home I dropped everything, didnt even put the milk away and got in the hot soothing shower. It hurt to stand up. Once out fo the shower and drying off I heard wes come home. I did not give him the warm welcome he is used to, i was still seething from how I felt and he went into the bathroom and istarted to make dinner. Soon Sophia said "there's a leak!" I'm thinking, how could there be a leak? - its a brand new house! Oh but it wasnt a leak, it was a displaced hose on the washer and there was a HUGE puddle. Sophia was a rock star and helped to clean it up, I finished making dinner and it wasnt until dinner was ready (hour later) that Wes emerged. I told him what happened through the door. Looking back i guess i felt a little abandoned in my time fo need. Wes was having a bad day too and was under no obligation topick me up from bart, and i certainly went right in the shower when i got home, so why couldnt he? but between the leak, my hungry sore body and my poor attitude, i was upset he wasnt there, then when he came out, he told me that i practically ignored him when he got home and that made him feel bad after his rough day and i just lost it. How can i be so self-involved? I felt like a total asshole and i lost my appetite and cried while he consoled me. I felt like mroe of a jerk cause now he was being so tender and sweet to me and i was the one being a jerk. we talked it out though and then relaxed to watch an episode of grey's anatomy on dvd. This is when i realized how cold iwas, i really felt freezing, chills and just totally cold. i was feeling so beat, i had to go to bed. I gave wes a kiss and crawled under the covers and slept very well.

This morning Iwoke up with the most raging headache ive had in a very long time, it still hasnt gone away after two ibuprofins. i also had to find the least offensive pair of back-up sunglasses, since mine broke and go to work in a pretty ugly outfit with just about the worst hair-day. At least it wasnt raining, but it was cold. very cold. The funny thing is , yesterday i wore a new top, it was white and fuzzy and super cute, but i got no compliments. today i wear my crazy paisley cowboy shirt and get two compliments before 9am. between that, the joke lynne made and the strawberries she brought in, i already feel better.

TGIF is an understatement!

oh and diet-wise, i am still tracking, still going over my points, but not as much as i did last week. im feeling pretty good about things.